Spectacular Monday

you know what Anna? I AM having fun, thank you very much! But maybe you should try something a little more encouraging when i am obviously not feeling the best...

I have been reading alagna's blog and really missing her. i wish that i was in socal with her. i dont know if that would be fun or stressful. not stressful becuase im with her, just becuase of the being on ur own at such a young age thing. i know that im supposed to be an adult now, but the thought of being 100% financially independent really scares me. And that is exactly what she is doing. so I really look up to her. She was the first one to break out of the house and start a future for herself. she is going through problems that all of my family members have never had to go through becuase they have always shyed away from striving for what they want. I know that even I am guilty of that. But i dont want to be like that anymore. I really need to think about what i want in the first place and that is usually the looming problem. i think i need to just do something rash! go for something and find out if it was right later. i play things too safe. i blame andy...he is my scapegoat.

Tonight is Dylan's 18th b-day. andy gets off work at 7 and we still dont know what to get him. Maybe some gay porn or something...

Yesterday I was with Kayla for the first time in...like 6 years. It was interesting. If you wanna know more about it hit me up on myspace or something. i dont think she would appreciate me talking about her here. yeah...

Andrew hella woke me up. I was taking a nap after classes and recovering from kayla and he called me. might be in town tonight...im not gonna count on it.

So the Phoenix was pretty cool. Not as many people as i expected. But the sound was amazing and I finally got to hear their new Subtones sonya - "alien song". yeah i know great title right? yeah i thought it was gonna be kinda bad just from the sound of it. but it was so FUCKING EPIC!! It was seriously orgasmic. i loved it!
The other bands were pretty cool. they were mostly kids, locals. the place was hella weird. when we first got their, there were hella kids EVERYWHERE. like 14 maybe 15 year old kids. the audience part of it actually had skating half pipe things. so people were skating and there were couches everywhere too. there is alot of grafitti all over the place but i think its expected of you to make ur mark. some it is really professional. like in the back room its hella tight. Then the Hellen Kellers were before the Subtones. they are so cool. The lead giutar/singer (Ryan) broke a string on his guitar on stage so he borrowed Andy's.
I was actually upset with andy for most of the time cuz he was neglecting me a lot and he never even wanted to watch the bands with me. and then everyone was drinking and acting really stupid (liz). it was...interesting. it was the first time i didnt drink out of anger at andy. i usually have some revenge shots when im mad at him. but i just sulked in the back while he neglected me.
But it all worked out later. I think everyone was on andy's case about me and so he eventually talked to me and i told him how i always give him his space at shows but he was being a real jerk. so he apologized and said that he didnt deserve me. since that is a heavy statement i forgave him. and then dennys. and that was that.

oh and liz...yeah so before hand her and nina were mad at the band cuz they werent getting free shirts. they claimed that they deserved free shirts cuz of their support. i was planning on paying for one anyway TO SUPPORT THEM! now thats FUCKING SUPPORT! dumb bitches.
no nina isnt a dumb bitch. i love her.
so anyway. then liz goes on a rant about how she doesnt even like them anyway. she doesnt think they're that good and if she didnt know all of them she would never go to their shows. how hurtful can you be. like i said - a dumb fucking bitch! and every single band that played - they were always like - oh they're not good. oh they are kidna bad.
dude they are kids! cut them some slack adn appreciate the fact that they have the guts to get on stage at the FUCKING PHOENIX and show everyone their musical talent. No one was that bad. i listened to all 5 bands and i wouldnt call any of them bad. some were just more inexperienced then others. but seriously. could you get on stage and play ur heart out to strangers at the phoenix? i dont think so!
So that is my liz rant...but i still love her cus her and nina always go out of their way to save me from missing the shows. so, yet again, i owe her a lot.

So...next show is The Shop. That'll be just a little whatever show. the bands playing with the subotnes are no where near on the same level as the subtones. so yeah. consider them to be the headliners.

what else to say. having a gay ol' time in Napa. Body or Brain plays in Vallejo on Friday. I am going there even if I have to walk!
i like checking out new venues. its almost a hobbie of mine now.

little green observasion of the week. Use a wash cloth in the shower instead of those weird scrubby things (that i have used for most of my life). if you havnt noticed, they are made of plastic. HELLO! no bueno... use a wash cloth and make the earth a better place.

Keep it clean
Keep it green

Namaste